21 11 / 2012

Til I can honestly say I’m perfect and be done with all this hate, disgust, pain, everything.

13 12 / 2011

13 12 / 2011

13 12 / 2011

13 12 / 2011

this summer let’s be thin and enjoy the season!!!! It’s time to get thin now so we don’t regret it later!!!

this summer let’s be thin and enjoy the season!!!! It’s time to get thin now so we don’t regret it later!!!

13 12 / 2011

Can’t wait for warm weather and 15 mile bike rides….sigh

Can’t wait for warm weather and 15 mile bike rides….sigh

06 12 / 2011

06 12 / 2011

Wow…..

Wow…..

06 12 / 2011

1.This morning hopped on the scale at my boyfriends house….I’m like 2 or 3 lbs under 150!!! His is a needle scale so I don’t have the exact. But omfg!!! I’m in the 140s!!!!!

2.My bones in my neck, shoulders, and my collar bones are really showing today. So i’m wearing this flowy grey tube top (with a cardigan of course.) OMFG MY BONES! :D finally showing more!

3.I’M ENGAGED! My boyfriend proposed to me last night at the beach where he asked me out. It was so sweet. I was all happy and stomping on the sand and he was behind me and said my name so I turned around and there he was with a ring and on one knee. I actually cried! I’m so happy right now! 

More determined than ever to lose weight!

My life is actually going good for the first time ever. 

29 11 / 2011

I’m making this blog in hopes to find more thinspo, and share my thoughts with all you lovely bloggers. :) 

I hope this blog will help me lose more. Since February I’ve lost about 35 lbs. I was at 190 and now 154.8 this morning, but it’s not enough. Never enough. 

I want to reach my UGW of 115 lbs as soon as I can… I’m 5’9” and 20 years old. My UGW might change. It might go up, might go down. I don’t know. Going to lose until I feel thin enough. I will do WHATEVER it takes. ANYTHING. No exceptions. 

So to reach it I must lose…39.8 lbs. Let’s do this.